Felt emotionally overwhelmed today that my tears decided to wet my cheeks. The happiness I felt was short-lived as I'm getting flashbacks of negative moments or unpleasant words that might have added to my emotional turmoil.
I'm not sure if anyone is still reading this blog, but I hope you have been okay. That aside, let's try to summarise what had happened earlier this year.
February ➛ Went sightseeing at London and Paris, packed some souvenirs for both sides of my families. I loved the fish and chips, chocolates and cold weather there.
March ➛ Catch up with some friends. Spent time to view couple of sites.
April ➛ Went for a short trip in Bali. Dad got hospitalised and was short of manpower (for his work). Luckily, my partner was available to assist. A big thank you to those who have helped along the way.
May ➛ Two of my friends have safely gotten engaged, and another, happily married. I also went to Jb for a quick getaway.
Jun ➛ Met up with some other friends. Mostly busy with both my jobs.
Along the way, my friendships and relationships were being greatly tested. Though, I am still grateful things deescalated; we all fixed it together eventually.
Not trying to complain or vomit my problems here, but all these years, I just have deep, unresolvable concerns about my unemployed sibling and the overly sensitive birth giver. I'm trying to balance my emotions and mental capacity from work, family, social life and personal time.
I got people talking behind my back too. I try to tell myself, "Maybe, just maybe, I am an interesting character and they're waiting for a crash out or another wild episode". All my life, I blend in or tried to fit in with people, but now, whatever happens, I shall move forward.
So, if I appear lifeless, restless or anything equivalent, please pardon and excuse me as I am giving my best and trying to take one step at a time each day. Because I feel like I'm doing everything alone (which most people tried to convince me that I'm not). No hard feelings, okay?
Remember to hydrate! It seems that the warm climate is almost unbearable nowadays.
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